Goodbye 2017

Oh what a year 2017 was. It was full of self discovery. Full of  me pushing my limits. Full of me doing what we all should do, taking time to love yourself.

I have no complaints for 2017. I kicked ass in radio yet again, I have ratings to prove so. I learned to love and let it go. I've learned to love my body and be comfortable with every scar, bump, fat bulge and more. Most importantly 2017 was the year when I finally decided to say fuck you to what others want for me and HELLO to what I wanted for me.

You only live once, so live for you. 

I've realized that I am a badass and no one should be able to tell me otherwise. I've seen my faults and that I'm really harsh not just on myself but on those that I love. I'm silent with my judgement but boy was I judgmental! I've learned to truly forgive and the power that it holds to let go and chose to love instead.

I've taken my mirror and looked at the dirty reflection and
 loved the process of cleaning it up. 

I took the giant leap of faith and moved to Los Angels. It was a plan well in the mix when I was six years old and told my dad where I was going to live. As of March 2017 it became a reality and it finally happened in August 2017. When God says move you move! I took all my signs, my prayers, meditations and everything else that came with this journey and sold all my stuff and hit the road.

2017 was all about me and I have no apologizes for it. 

2018 will be all about my power and what God will use me for. I have a great feeling about next year. I'll leave it at that because some things are better left unsaid.

<3 Ebony

Merry Christmas!

I hope you're enjoying your day today or evening 

depending on when you're able to read this. 

I hope that today, you were able to relax. This time of year can be very stressful for all of us. For some reason, the holiday time puts us in an overly disgusting cheerfully mood, or have us manically panicked, or increasingly depressed and even for some of us all three! I was watching a sermon by Steven Furtick who preaches at Elevation Church in one of the Carolina's and he shared that during the holiday time, it's a time where the devil is most at work.

It make me sit back and think for a minute how true this saying is. Personally, when I have a breakdown or a panic attack or an attack from the devil, it's usually during the winter months. When I dig further into it, it always happens during the Christmas season. Why is that? Well, I think it's because there's an overwhelming sense of pressure during this time.

For me, all of my major moves that God calls me to do happen during this time. My bank account takes a major hit, I'm never where I want to be personally or professionally, but I still move when he says move, no matter what location, what job, I do as instructed. This time around, something is a little different. I'm finally where I want to be location wise and everything else is falling into place. I've mentioned this before, but I'm finally in a place of  happiness.

When I started to chase what matters most to me, everything got a little easier. When I left a place of certainty to follow my heart, my passion, my calling, it's not easy to remain faithful to God or to listen to him; but when I finally did it, the overwhelming sense of peace that fills my heart is amazing. I've been struggling a lot, but it's never getting to me. Instead, this time, my struggles are helping me. I could cave, leave and do what's easy; but I truly gave God everything!

 I can finally see him at work. 

I no longer stress, I don't worry, I don't cry, instead, I live my life, I enjoy myself, I experience the best situations and experiences. I've met new people and love them all differently. I've seen who is for me and who is against me. Who should be in my life or who I should let parish. I've accepted people in their seasons and appreciated them for it. I've learned to love while learning to love myself in the process.

Most importantly, I've realized it's time to help myself.

All of this, just by leaving what's familiar and trusting God with the rest. I know what 2018 has to offer. Well, I know that God is about to show out and I'm so excited. He gave me a little taste of it when I left Denver and moved to Los Angeles. I'm sitting tight in praise and worship at every corner whether something moves in my favor or is denied to me for my protection.

So, let's do something different this holiday season. Instead of letting it take a dig at us. Take time to relax and love yourself. Loving yourself is one of the most important things in this crazy beautifully twisted thing we call life.

<3 Ebony 

Still Going Straight

I've been taking a break from social media and some other things in life. When I moved to Los Angeles, I felt this overwhelming sense of peace in my heart. When I drove from Denver, CO to North Hollywood, tears of joy came down my face on the 15 hour drive as I passed through many state lines. A sense of relief that it's finally here, constant prayer of gratitude as I would look to my right and see my dad trying his best not to take a nap.

I've taken leaps of faith before, however I haven't taken one that's this huge! To seriously give up everything because God said it's time. Thing is, I have no idea what it's time for. All I know is that he said move. With his track record in history and in my life, who am I to question what he says? He's been showing me little things so far that this is where he wants me.

I love when I pray certain things and he shows out just to prove that he's listening. He knows all his children, so he knows what I'm about to ask him and he delivers if not right before I ask it's quickly after I ask.  The hardest part is shutting up, sitting still and listening. Waiting to hear him and the next move for me. When do I turn right Papa? I have to stand the silence because when it's my turn to make that right, like Pastor Joel Osteen said, like a GPS God will tell to you when turn right.

 So I'm still going straight. 

In the mean time, I've been crazy busy enjoying life and loving myself and all that's  been coming my way. The people, the dating, the vegan restaurants, the hiking, the beaches, the concerts, the love in the silence when I'm alone. I'm so in love with this stage of my life I'm not documenting it. I'm hardly posting on social media because I'm enjoying my company why would I want to be on my phone? 

As we all start to head into a new season, I encourage you to do things that make you happy. I pray that you focus on what makes you, you. Do you want to start that business? Do you want to get into better shape? Do you want to get closer to God? Do you want to find love? Do you want true happiness? Do you want to chase your dreams? Whatever it is that'll make you happy, I hope you go for it. 

Life is to short for what ifs.

<3 Ebony