Saturday, December 29, 2018

End of 2018


Where has the year gone? 

I don't want to be cliche, but where has the time gone? I feel like it was yesterday, when I decided to follow my heart and move to Los Angeles. It also seems like just yesterday when I was going through the hardest challenges I had ever faced. It was all a test to see if I really wanted it or not. You'll be surprised by how strong you are, when faced with doubts of self and God. 

When the very basics are taken away from you. When you have no choice but to succumb to the oddest of doings just to survive. When you call on those who are "there" for you, only to realize, they never were. It's amazing to me the amount of love I've gained, lost and separated from.  Now that those challenges are over, I can understand why they needed to happen. 

There's always a rise to your fall

Now that those challenges are over, I can appreciate the ones to come. I can also sit still, because God will always see me through. If he sought me through the trails that I faced over the past year, I know, that he will do the same for everything I'm going to face in the future. Because of this, I've found inner peace.  

Knowing that Gods got me, has me relaxed

2019. I wish I could tell you the things that are about to come before the New Year begins. I'm learning to wait, and sit in the blessings. I'm learning to love on them when they come and share them when necessary. I've been sitting on gold for the past six months. I've been sitting on some exciting news for the past week. All of which, will be revealed in time. 

When it comes to thinking about goals for 2019. I don't have any that require losing weight, or eating better nothing like that. Instead it's simple because I've reached so many of my personal hearts' desires. I plan to travel next year, both in and out of country. I plan to continue to love as hard as I can. I plan to pray harder and bigger while working on not panicking. 

For the remainder of the year and 2019, I hope that you're able to accomplish your goals and have all your dreams come true. I hope that you start that business. I hope that you tell that person that you love them. I hope you gather the courage to ask that person out. I hope that you start your diet and work on yourself. Most importantly, I hope that you forgive and LOVE you for you. That you learn to accept you for you. That you know that you're amazing, brilliant, talented and chosen. You are destined for greatness. 

Until next year my friend. 
<3 Ebony