Third Book is here!

Can we say excited? Blessed? Humble? Man oh man my God is amazing and seeing my work in my hands is even more amazing. Let the first round of edit begin! I will release the title and what it's about in time for now we have to make sure it's perfect :) 

Crucified My Own Heart-Ebony

Getting love in a world full of hate 

Seems impossible with all my mistakes 

Finding love in a place with disgrace 

Makes me wonder if I ever had a place 

To call my own something to call home maybe even someone to call on

The world makes you cold 

Bitter... In a way it gives you jitters 

Lookin over my shoulder to see only my shadow followed by pitch forks and torches 

But yet he expects us to love this? 

Nail me to the cross 

Crucified my own heart 

Mind in a furry 

Words all bunched up  

Vision is blurry 

Actions all screwed up

Living in a world full of hate

Is the same as loving people

Despite them being a mistake 

Nail me to the cross 

Crucified my own heart 

Wipe those tears 

And use a needle to sow my fears

With all the lies and hurt and it's starting to seep through 

I don't know if I have enough thread to mend what's due

Nail me to the cross 

Crucified my own heart

Smile on my face 

Can't let them know they beat me 

Smile on my face 

As I walk in new territory 

Smile on my face 

So they can't see my pain leak 

Smile on my..... 

Many say:

Nail me to the cross 

I can't love in this world 

so I crucified my own heart 

Might as well die now 

Just die off make my life short 

To experience no love, tell me what is life meant for? 

Many say: 

Just nail me to the cross

I don't wanna feel my heartbeat 

So many just crucify their own heart 

Because of all their emines 

They don't know where the lie ends 

They can't see where their life begins 

So they just burry it deep inside 

Not allowing them to live life 

They say God is love 

And he is what we seek 

How can we not love if love is what God has made in us? 

The weak, the ill, the sick minded 

Much like us we all need one thing 

So don't nail me to the cross 

Don't crucify my heart 

I Believe it'll happen again

Until then I gotta let my heart mend. 

I won't allow society to tell me how it should be 

What's me and what's reality 

You can't blindfold me and end me 

You can't nail me to the cross and crucify my heart 

-Ebony 

Just Ordered My Third Novel

Oh man guys! I'm beyond happy right now. For those who know me you know that writing is what I LOVE and the fact that GOD Is allowing me to do so is amazing. I just ordered a copy of my third novel, so I can edit it before I send it to my editor. Lesson learned from my first novel, ALWAYS check your work! You check it, send it off maybe two to three times and then YOU check it again. I was very sour how my first book was edited, mainly because I paid an editing team who did a very bad job, now my first baby is out there lookin  a hot ass mess! But not any more!

My second novel I Hate Social Networking is still doing very well! I love my editor for loving my work and making it extra spectacular. With this third novel I can't help but feel excitement. I'll say the title of the book and what its about in a month or so :). I love reading my first book and then my second and now my third, looking and seeing how much I've grown with my writing is great. The fact that you guys are buying it shows that you care about my growth. It's like you're watching me grow through my writing so we are growing together; that is very personal :)


Check out the "My Books" section to see what's out and whats on the way! Thank you all for the support I love you and appreciate the buys, the kind words and the prayers! Please keep praying for a sista I greatly appreciate it .

<3 Ebony

Nicki with Angie Martinez

Well her album The Pink Print (out now) is fantastic very raw with emotion, she had to take a break as the interview with Angie Martinez got a little emotional. Honestly it makes her more human, and makes me an even bigger fan. 

Holiday Happy

I love the holidays, despite most of them being drama filled and just awkward with fake "love" in the air. To me there's something about holiday smells that soothes my heart. I'm not disappointed to spend the holidays in Texas this year and not in Alaska; although I will say snow is much missed for Christmas time.

Thanksgiving this year, had to be the first time I've experienced a happy holiday. There was no awkwardness, everyone I was with was at the table, laughing talking and enjoying each other NOT on the phone or locked away in a room. We cooked together, laughed, released some stress; girl chat was great and it's something I really don't get to experience. After a much needed nap, us ladies got pretty and danced the night away.

Sitting there at the table and watching new friends and old friends build relationships, I realized that this is how it's supposed to be. You're supposed to be happy. I wasn't bored, I wasn't surrounded by weird conversation, or quietness that would usually fill the air.

What do the holidays bring you? Is it happiness? Grief? Pain? If it doesn't bring happiness than change the scenery for once and see what that brings you. I realized it's the little things that matter, the looks, the smiles, the conversation. The people around you do in fact have an impact on how you act and deliver things. After having a great turkey day, I can happily say I wont settle for anything less than a happy, talkative, smile filled holiday because now I know it's possible and not just a plot in a Hallmark movie.

Christmas will be very different this year as I plan to spend it solo. I need time to myself and reflect, Jesus has been more than good to me, I don't believe the word exists yet for how well off I am thanks to him. I plan to take that day and the days leading up to it and after to be in practice of solitude with just him and I.I get excited every morning as I pray and follow my plan on my Bible app, I know there's something right in front of me that he is planning to reveal. I have nothing else to say but thank you.