Ebony Williams

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

3 Reasons why you need to buy Forest Hills Drive by J Cole

One of the most anticipated albums people have been wanting is from J Cole. Since his release of Born Sinner in 2013 hip hop lovers have been WAITING for J Cole to drop a new album. On Dec 9th he released Forest Hills Drive. Before the album dropped it was leaked, of course I listened to it knowing that I will buy this album no matter what. While listening to his album and getting lost in his words I came up with three reasons why you need to buy this album.

1. It's reality that's spoken without fear. Thoughts and words we all have felt but for some that are to afraid to say it, Cole says it just perfectly.

2. It's proof that real hip hop isn't dead

3. It'll make you want to get up off your ass and do something with your life.

Being motivated by one of the best, powerful most influential voices of our time. J. Cole is one of five artists that I listen to when I'm having writers block. Hearing another persons creativity will motivate you and get you out of that funk.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Poem or thoughts....

According to the world natural beauty isn't a real thing. The European look is validated while the natural look from the mother land is mocked. I'm to dark no wait not dark enough to tall no wait not tall enough, to big chested but for this you're not big enough, small ass I'm not thick enough but my thighs tho?

No makeup that means I don't care about how I look. To much makeup and then I'm a whore with daddy issues. Small heels and I'm uncoordinated or a child, six inch heels and I'm a stripper or prostitute. Tight clothes mean I'm a whore baggy clothes means I have no confidence.

Saying "I want a man" and I'm a weak woman saying "I don't need a man" and I'm a stupid woman. Having lots of girl friends means I'm a party gossip girl, having lots of male friends and I'm a THOT (which makes no sense by the way). Having no friends I'm a loner with bipolar disorder.

Getting focused and staying quiet all of a sudden "I changed" making money and now I hear "money changed me" I've been the same but you didn't bother to SEE me. Don't answer my phone because I'm always being used, answer my phone and they say "I have nothing better to do".

Write a blog about reality an Indepth perspective on situations and now I'm called the Taylor Swift of radio because I write my emotions but hey atleast she getting money though.

Use real English the type certain people tried to hide from us and I'm "acting white" when I talk with ignorance or say "yassss bitch" I'm now considered to be "fitting in".

Made white friends and now I'm selling out to many black friends and I'm racist. Don't respond to messages on social sites now I'm a bitch. I say hi back and now They think I want the dick.

In a better place and they say "I think I'm to good now".

At the end of the day you'll never make everyone happy so Yes that is true according to you "I'm to good now"

To good to sit back and allow the pointless thoughts, assumptions, negative notions, and bullying situations seep into my blood. To good to sit and be complacent by your side and die slowly in this life. To good to wait... And wait.... And be okay with nothing. To good to honestly believe that people's views of me matter. As you knocked me and tried to pull me down to where you lay, God grabbed me and told me "I'll be okay". Nothing changed me, where I'm going changed you. Realizing you could've had it too but you lost focus. I'm still lame tho right? I'll take it.

Late night poem or maybe just thoughts. Written on my phone in the morning I might polish it up. Might.

Night

<3 Eb

Thursday, December 4, 2014

7 Years Later

First met in a club he said "hey" our eyes locked for a quick second and my heart skipped plenty of beats.... I was 16. Two years later we became involved, on and off for years. Between my boyfriends and his "friends" we could never get enough of one another. Always my person to lean on, cuddle, hold me when I cried and even held my hair when I threw up. Physically beating people up for me, like my knight and shinning armor. Whenever I was hurt he felt it, and he didn't like feeling it. My heart aches when his does, my bones hurt knowing about the atmosphere he's in and my mind races on the weekends when trouble would stir. But yet I couldn't get enough of him. Seven years later, the fights, arguments, calls, and tears was no match for the happiness that happened when he smiled at me. Something genuine about his smile, him being able to sleep when I'm around him, something personal and loving. We love hard and for seven years we loved to the best we knew how. Never official but to those close to us we were. But seven years later, I have to let it go. The thought of us, the wondering can I go another seven years without being official? Without knowing forsure that he wants me and wants the world to see? Or should I just be complacent? Okay with the thought and nothing after that? I'm not okay with it. Moving was for many things and the number one thing was to further my career. Number two was to escape the reality that the one my heart beats for will never feel the same, seven years later I'm ready to heal and close that door. Who knows how I will react if he calls or texts. I'm only human. What I do know is that I love myself more than ever and by looking at a man who took me to dinner a couple nights ago; seeing the look in his eyes. I knew then that there are people who appreciate what I have to offer and who want what I can give. Its a process, a long process one that takes time and understanding and a clear mind to make certain decisions. It wasn't overnight, but I've been weeding myself off of him for three years. I had a few strings still attached three major ones! I've officially cut those four months ago. Feeling wanted and loved and appreciated is what people look for and desire. We all deserve it. Whether you know it right away, or seven years later; what's important is that we love ourself enough to say "enough". Yes my heart aches at the thought of an informal "goodbye" but my heart smiles at my ability to allow myself healing. Seven years later I say goodbye to you and hello to me.

Monday, November 24, 2014

MY Kevin Hart- Wedding Ringer

Kevin Hart is doing a college tour that involves 15 schools across the country; to test out some of his new material for his new comedy tour "What Now". While he is a busy man, from recently becoming engaged, to being a father, preparation for his new tour, Hart is NON-STOP and shows no signs of slowing down. While Hart scheduled to do a show for Texas Aggie students, I got the opportunity to to ask him a few questions before we headed inside the theater to watch a special screening of his new movie "The Wedding Ringer" due in January 2015. I think it's safe to say, in 2015 we will be seeing AND hearing A LOT from Kevin Hart.

Sunday, November 23, 2014

AMA 2014 Recap

I have to say I LOVED every performance at this years American Music Awards. From Selena Gomez making people cry while singing "Heart Wants What It Wants" to Taylor Swift who was presented with the FIRST EVER Dick Clark Excellence Award present by the fabulous Diana Ross and a whole lot of booty shaking; the AMAS was fantastic from start to finish. Check out the list of winners and the performances for this years recap of the AMAS 2014.